Back when I was working weird hours, I would pick up Max’s siblings from school a few days a week. We played a little game when they hopped in the car called Rose Bud. We would all have to come up with a Thorn (the worst part of our day), a Rose (the best part of our day), and a Bud (something we are looking forward to). But you always have to end on either the Rose or the Bud, so that you end the game on a positive.
Last week I turned 25. And let me tell you I am not anywhere near where I thought I would be by the time I hit half way through my twenties. I know most of you are reading and thinking GIRL YOU ARE YOUNG YOU HAVE SO MUCH LIFE AHEAD OF YOU. Yeah, yeah, yeah I get it. But when you have goals that you don’t hit… it gets a little discouraging.
So I’ve been taking some time to really reflect on what my life looks like, where I’m headed, and how I want to get there. But one of the biggest life lessons I’ve learned in the last 3 years is that you can’t plan your life. You just can’t. You never know what it’s going to throw at you or what turns it’s going to take. So I am focusing on having goals rather than plans.
I thought I would share with you my Rose Bud, not for just today, but for life in general.
Thorn: I am not where I want to be: financially, physically, emotionally, whatever. I straight up don’t feel like I have my shit together. But does anybody really? I spend a lot of time kicking myself for where I’m not, and what I haven’t done yet. Which really doesn’t make a lot of sense. I just need to get my ass in gear and make my dreams come true.
Rose: I’ve had a lot of roses. Like way more than I count. From trips to Disney, building our apartment, getting a kitten, starting a new job that I love, the list goes on forever. But the there are two major roses: Getting engaged, and being apart of the adoption process for Max’s youngest sister, Addie. Addie has changed my life (as have her entire family) in more ways than anyone could ever know. She came to us with more medical and developmental challenges than we expected; but watching her parents, siblings, and grandparents fight for her every single day has been incredible. She is the bravest, strongest, and funniest little bean I know. And watching her grow makes my heart happy. I could literally write an entire book about this kid.
The obvious one is getting engaged. I can not express how happy I am to be starting a life with Max. He is my best friend on the planet and I could never imagine a better way to spend my life. He is quite literally my other half. Max has been an absolute gem through the wedding planning process. He is patient, involved, and so incredibly supportive. The wedding process can be ridiculously stressful, but Max has made it so easy.
Bud: Starting my life as Mrs. Woods. Launching my blog (even though I’m writing posts it isn’t public yet). Accelerating my career. Buying our first home. Tapping back into my creative gizmos that are floating around my brain. Starting a family. Getting a puppy (RIGHT MAX???). And so many more adventures.
I may not be exactly where I had imagined, but where I’m headed looks pretty great 🙂